My Life: As Bailey January 22, 2010

*meow*

Please forgive me, it has been many months since my last confession… or something like that (I am not Catholic).  But in reality, it has been a long time since I last blogged and it has not been for lack of time or simple forgetfulness.  Rather, I just have not had a whole lot to say because not much has changed.  At first, I was hesitant to admit this but now I feel like I better own it.  And the stagnant periods of activity in my life the last few months have been met with tiny, scattered victories along the way.  So let’s see where I am at…

I still do not have a job.  It has been called to my attention that I do a lot more searching than I do applying, which obviously does nothing to get oneself from point A to point B (but it does sometimes provide me with a small amount of false accomplishment).  There are several reasons for my lack of application, the first being that I am a stubborn, starry-eyed college graduate with big dreams and a small concept of reality… I just want to have a job worthy of a college degree so that I know that four years worth of hard work and money were not all blown to smithereens so that I can go back to waiting tables.  Secondly, I hate awkward situations and having to say “thank you for opportunity but I am going to have to decline your offer for such-and-such position at your company”, or “I am sorry but this job really is not working out for me but thank you for the opportunity”.  Awkward.  And I have had to do that several times.  I do not want to put myself in those kinds of situations so I often find myself second-guessing jobs that I could apply for. This all needs to stop.  I need to stop thinking so much and just follow the advice my mother gave me in high school when I wanted a date for prom…”Bailey, you just gotta put yourself out there!”  I have been afraid to search and apply for jobs that might not be the “dream” job for me in the fear that the moment I settle for any job, the perfect job will come along and I will have missed out.  However, the longer I continue to wait and hold off, the more I second guess myself and lose confidence.  I am willing to wait for that perfect job or career opportunity, but that does not mean I can’t wait tables in the mean time.  Moreover, if I want to keep the option of grad school open in the near future, I am going to need to start saving.  Going back to waiting tables may not be ideal for me right now, but it might give me the confidence boost I need to “put myself out there” and lets me get back to something I loved to do and was good at (not to mention a little extra shopping money!)

One of my little victories in the last month or so was that I received an internship with the Tucson Museum of Art.  Recently, I have been strongly considering going back to school for my teaching license, so I applied for an internship with the education department at the museum.  This way I kill to birds with one stone, getting both museum and education experience.  Every Wednesday from 11-4 I am required to be at the museum.  My main duties have to do with assisting the Davis program, which is an after-school art program with little kids from a nearby elementary.  For an hour and a half every Wednesday we tour the gallery and do art projects associated with current exhibitions.  Currently, we are still planning lessons and weekly themes, but the kid’s first day will be Feb. 3.  My other major project is to independently design some sort of advertisement/poster for birthday parties at the museum.  The education department is always looking for ways to increase revenue and they have recently begun to try hosting kids’ birthday parties without much success.  So I will be working a little bit with the museum’s graphic designer on that project.  In addition, they want me to help brainstorm and develop activities that can be done during the parties that incorporate current exhibitions.  Currently, the main temporary exhibit is Ansel Adams, which is phenomenal.  However, towards the February, we are bringing in an Andy Warhol exhibit (including atleast one Marilyn and one Campbell’s soup can!!), which I think will really interest a lot of people and inspire a lot of fun projects for the kids.  The museum is also bring in work by Mexican-muralist David Tineo, as well as work by Phoenix artist Ed Mell who features western landscape in his painting and sculptures.  The museum is like nothing I have been to before because it is located on the historic block in downtown Tucson.  What they have done is place two of their permanent collections featuring pre-Columbian, Latin-American, and western American art within two historic houses, so it is a much more intimate setting and experience.  The entire block seems to encapsulate southwestern art and history with its adobe architecture, mosaic art, and flowing fountains…its perfect for Tucson.

Anyway, I think that is all I will add for tonight.  I am hoping to blog to you all about my fabulous new job that I plan to get in near future, so cross your fingers for me!  I also want to dedicate this blog to Owen for all of his patience, understanding, and encouragement!  Until next time!

PS: Long live Conan

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